18 years ago...

Gosh, has it really been that long? I can't believe it.

I got told we were expecting shortly after moving to Arizona without my wife and eldest daughter. The late 80's had killed us and our dreams of being business owners and we found ourselves in the early 90's broke and desperate. We had friends in Arizona that offered us a job, so I took the offer (which fell through) and I left my young family to go to Arizona in hopes of creating a better life.

6 months later, and still almost 2 months too early, I left the Mrs. at the hospital with the assurance that the preterm labor had been controlled and "nothing would happen". I was working at Pizza Hell for only slightly more than minimum. My boss, being the poorly paid drone that he was, said he needed me to come in even though my wife was in the hospital because his basset hound was having puppies. Yes, really.

Hating life, my boss, and my job, I puttered my way through the night. When I finally had time I called the hospital to check on my dear wife. The nurse said she couldn't come to the phone but that she and my daughter were doing fine. "huh?" "Mr. A, it's a girl".

Someone behind me cleaning up the restaraunt said something like "wouldn't it be funny if she had the baby while he was here". As I was hanging up I replied "she did, it's a girl". I tried to call my boss, be he didn't answer his phone. Having the only key, I had to wait until things were done before I left. But as soon as I could, I went to the hospital.

I don't remember the drive or getting through security and such, but I barged my way into the Mrs. room. Funny thing, as she starts to relay the story, a nurse comes in and says "Mrs. A, your mother is here". Her mother? How did she know? How did she get to Arizona from Iowa so fast? I went out to meet her only to find a person who could in no way be related to my wife. University hospitals, fun.

So, anyway, I finally got the whole story. After I left the Mrs. at the hospital, they moved her to a room with other women who were having pre-term labor issues. In a big city, there are always a few. So, she's sitting in this room and her water breaks. Two months too early. After getting the staffs attention, the rush her into the emergency delivery room, afraid they'd have to do an emergency C-section.

But baby was coming too fast. And backwards. They tried to turn the baby while she was still inside her mama. Twice. Both times, she flipped back. She was coming on her own terms and in her own way. Twenty minutes after the water broke, out she came, butt first, mooning the world as she entered it.

She was small. Not ultra small, but still small, and too early. The next couple of months were a blur. I still had to work, but we spent every possible minute at the hospital. She had to spend all her time in an incubator until she could breath on her own. That's not exactly right, she was breathing on her own, but not getting enough oxygen into her bloodstream. And she needed to gain some weight. She was 4lbs. 10oz. at birth, but almost instantly lost the 10oz.

But things went the way they were supposed to. The incubator did it's job and she could come home. She was so small, Not even big enough to wear premie clothes. Cabbage Patch dolls were all the rage then, so we bought some Cabbage Patch clothes for her. And even those were too big. To give you an idea, here's an outfit similar to one we used to put on her. I added the ruler for reference.
The outfit hung off of her. Imagine a little tiny head through the top and the feet barely sticking out of the legs of the shorts. We had to put extra padding in her car seat just to hold her in there, we had to sew the belts to fit because they wouldn't tighten enough.

Today, you'd never know. She's 6 feet tall and getting scholarship offers from all over the place.

Happy Birthday, Miss C.

I don't want him to fail

I do hold some conservative values. Being a Christian I am often lumped in with extreme conservatives because of what many presume I believe based on my religious orientation. However, when I truly examine my political views, I find I fall outside of mainline conservatives. Nor am I a liberal, by the strictest political definition. If I have to affiliate myself with a political party, I am closest to being a Libertarian.

There has been a lot of talk on the talk shows lately (I guess that's what they're for) about a comment from Rush Limbaugh saying he wants President Obama to fail. Some conservatives have even gone so far as to say "he's not my president". I hate that. Like his views or not, voted for him or not, Barak Obama was legally voted by a majority to be THE President of the United States. If you are an American citizen, he is your President.

Some say Mr. Limbaugh's quote was taken out of context. I've read what was said, the whole monologue in which the quote took place. I've heard a replay of the radio broadcast. There is no mistaking that the quote is meant exactly as it stands. He wants Obama to fail. To say such a thing show contempt for the office, and likewise for the American people.

Now, do I like everything that has happened in the last 35 days or so since President Obama was sworn in? No. I don't think anyone does 100%, not even the President himself. Do I like the fact that the stimulus package was designed to help corporations and government instead of bailing out the people directly? No. But, do I want these programs to fail? No. Why? Because unlike Mr. Limbaugh and other "loud" conservatives, I don't have a pot of gold hanging from my butt. Me and my family are $5 away from having to skip a meal because we can't afford food. I already have had to do without my medication for about 2 months which has led to a rapid decline in my condition. We're having to pick and choose what things our children participate in and which functions we drive to because we can't afford the gas.

Failure of Obama's (and the Democratically controlled congress') plans means disaster for my family and many of my friends. Every day another "for sale" sign goes up in my neighborhood with "foreclosed" pasted to it. And we live in an area with lots of cheaply made mobile/modular homes. It's scary. I don't think the plans in action are the best options, but failure is not an option, and to say that or to think that shows nothing except a level of self-centered-ness and narcissism that American's don't need right now. Especially when you don't have any other ideas except "don't raise my taxes because I'm rich". Being rich in a time of need shows a contempt for your fellow man that is disgusting. I'm not talking about relative wealth, I'm talking you have millions in the bank, make hundreds of thousands a year while your former neighbor lives in a tent down by the river.Shut up, pay your taxes, open your heart and wallet and DO SOMETHING.

AND if I hear one more person say "pull yourself up by your bootstraps like I did", I'm gonna punch them. It's hard to pull yourself up by your bootstraps when the the banks, stock market, and AIG (why do we keep giving them money?) lost your boots.

So, my conservative friends, I am officially distancing myself from anyone who supports Mr. Limbaugh or who shares his views. President Obama IS my president and I DON'T want him to fail.

I pray fervently that he doesn't.