I Just Want to feel Normal Again

I've had enough. I've been poked and prodded and scanned and Lord knows what else. I'm overmedicated, exhausted, and really just had enough. I want my life back, I want to have a day without pain, I want to be able to go to work, in some capacity at least, I want to be able to do SOMETHING.

My greatest fear is that it's all in my head, that somehow I've snapped something and there's really nothing that can be done except more medication and more ups and downs and no end in sight. I can't live like this much longer.