Things I have been keeping to myself

As I mentioned in our family blog (see link to the right), I am having problems.

Problems is a big understatement. But something I've been trying to keep to myself (even though my lovely wife can see right through me) is that I'm scared.

Is that bad of me to say? Are Christians allowed to be scared? I know in my head and my heart that my hope is in Christ, that no matter what happens, it is within God's will and that should be a great comfort... and it is, to a point. But I'm still scared. I have seven children, even if I'm going to be able to return to some level of work, it will be like starting over again. I'm not sure I have the strength to do it again.

Am I not trusting God enough by admitting that I'm a little more than freaked out?